Saturday, November 21, 2009

So here I am

just staring up at the ceiling
as if there was never anything better to do
and there isn't
not really
I have homework to finish
a room to clean
friends to phone
a test or two to study for
nothing to do
I guess it's all part of being a teenager
you live life feeling as though you have no purpose
then you graduate and go to university
and somewhere down the line
poof! purpose!
it just falls out of the sky and into your hands
just like that
suddenly the world seems to be a much brighter place
but it's not really like that, life isn't that simple
but we wish it was
and
so
we
pretend
telling ourselves
that
it
is.

Time For A Different Kind of Post

Well, with no followers and no friends to ask to read my blog, I might just stop writing... But I'm enjoying myself a little and thus far my blog has been a way to get a little tension off my back. I just don't know how I feel about it being visible to the whole wide world of internet users. After all, everything I write has a little piece of me tucked inside of it, and so I wind up feeling a little vulnerable.
Writing my heart out is certainly not an option.
And it's not doing much for my lackluster sense of self-confidence.
So, long story written up in short, I might just end my blog. It's not exactly my thing, and in case anyone hasn't noticed, I haven't managed to post once a week. Not at all.
So I might take up photojournalism. In fact, that sounds like a great plan, with only one minor flaw: I'm not so great a photographer.
In the end, I'm pretty sure I'll keep the blog. I am on the whole a rather indecisive person, and generally speaking that means that once I start doing something I continue doing it. Something in this case being keeping up a blog.
So, yes, I'll continue. I suppose.

....
....
I suppose.

Wednesday, November 11, 2009

Blue Moon Jazz-dancer

A solitary figure walked down the street. In one hand he held a large black case, in the other, a cigar. He walked with a spring in has step, his head held high, whistling a jaunty tune. The man's fedora cast a shadow on his face, ensuring that none of his features were visible. Had anyone been able to see past the brim of his hat, they would have seen a flawless, symetrical face, with sharp, observant eyes. The face of a wanted man. Jerry Jones.
Jones raised his cigar to his mouth and took a long drag, blowing the smoke away into the night. As he did this, his sleeve fell back, revealing a golden watch, striking in comparison to his jet black skin. As the sleeve slid further, a scar appeared. Rounded and crossed, one could just faintly make out the letters BJ. A slave branding.
Jerry Jones walked down the street and out of sight. The blue moon watched him go.
------
At precisely three A.M. Mary Malone awoke to the sound of rocks hitting her window.
"What do you want?" She yelled out, peering into the darkness. A pause. "Jerry?"
And then, "Come on Mary, you know you want to."
"You're a crazy man Jones, they're offering nearly four hundred dollars for you now, you hear? I can't be seen with you."
"Aw, come on Mary, don't be like that. Come on out. We got some fiddles and my sax, all we need is a dancer."
"I told you Jones, not any more. If my mama knew what I was up to....." Mary's voice trailed off. She'd go and die all over again, that's what.
"Your mama's gone, girl." Jones whispered, "And she'd want you to have a little fun. I knew her better than you did. let's go."
Mary frowned. Nothing was clear any more. But she wanted to go. So bad. "Hang on a moment, I'll be down."
"That's my girl."
------
An hour later, with her lipstic done and a dress on, Mary Malone walked into the Blue Moon Cafe, Jerry Jones was at her side. Beside him walked a tall man, he carried a violin case.
"Relax Mary, none of the guys here would turn me in. We're all friends."
"There's a price on your head Jones, a bigger one than any. Men kill for money like that."
"True, but they won't turn me in. I'm too good for that."
Applause sounded as the trio walked up to the stage. The announcer called their names, and cheers errupted from the audience. Everyone loved Jones, he was a favorite, a hero. Mary sighed, Jerry was right. No one would ever turn him in.
Letting the crowd's enthusiasm swell within her, Mary bannished her fears to the back corner of her mind. Tommorow she would worry, tonight she would dance.
Buffalo gals won't ya come out to-night, come out to-night, come out to-night
Buffalo gals won't you come out to-night and we'll dance by the light of the moon
I danced with a gal with a hole in her stocking
And her knees was a-knockin'
and her shoes was a'rockin'
I danced with a gal with a hole in her stocking
And we danced by the light of the moon.