For Alex, the way I recall him

I love you

I know.

it’s crazy and weird and you’re beautiful

and perfect and strange

and I love you.

for the way you curl your toes over the edge of the sidewalk

and the way you brush the hair away from your lips

and for the way you dance when you think no one is watching

on the corner of the street with your headphones on.

I love your smile

the way you laugh

the way you look at the sky

when you think it might rain.

I love your nose

the way it wrinkles

when you hear a good joke.

I love your eyes

the way they always seem so happy

even when you aren’t

I love you because you think you might be gay

I love you because you deny it so vehemently

I love you because you’re afraid and it’s beautiful.

you’re beautiful

and you don’t even know it.

I love you

I know

you couldn't understand it if you tried

because you've never seen yourself as lovable

it's sad

because you're so wonderful

and you

like everyone

deserve to know that you're loved.