I'm like a coin

Happy on one side
Sad on the other
constantly flipping
always just one
never both
each fighting
the other to be
the one on top.
never winning
for very long
but lingering
if they can.
my emotions
play with me
bat me back
bat me forth
just like a
ping-pong ball
caught in this
eternal game.
Happy now
Sad tomorrow
living not in
equilibrium
but in a state
of constant
rearrangement
of my heart
rearrangement
of my mind
and of myself.
every fiber of
my being will
love life so much
one day and
hate it the next,
hate life so much
I'm willing to
throw it away
like a coin
on the sidewalk
vacillating between
happy and sad
bitter and sweet
rejoicing one day
and cursing the next.
two sides, one coin
that's me.