As Time Went By

maybe one day i'll understand why you had to leave
why we couldn't stay the way we were forever
why life couldn't be a simple as it ought to be
technically, you're not the one who left
i was, i am. but it wasn't me who drifted,
becoming more and more distant as time wore on
maybe one day i'll understand why i can't hold it all together
why suddenly, i feel so lonely and incapable
why i can't be as strong inside as i am on the exterior
technically, i shouldn't be lonely
i have good friends everywhere i go
but none of them are the same, none of them are you
maybe one day i'll understand why you changed
why you couldn't be the same anymore
why you had to walk a path so different from mine
technically, we were on different paths the whole time
i was looking for respect and you were looking for love
but we both wanted similar things: adventure, intellect
maybe one day i'll understand why i didn't see then what i can see now
why i missed you so completely, seeing only what i wanted to see
why i couldn't value you for what you really were
technically, there was and is nothing wrong with you
i was always the one with the problem, the one who made the mistake
nothing was your fault, you were always just you, no one else, unlike me
maybe, maybe it's my fault that you left.