So here I am

just staring up at the ceiling

as if there was never anything better to do

and there isn't

not really

I have homework to finish
a room to clean
friends to phone
a test or two to study for

nothing to do

I guess it's all part of being a teenager
you live life feeling as though you have no purpose
then you graduate and go to university
and somewhere down the line

poof! purpose!

it just falls out of the sky and into your hands

just like that

suddenly the world seems to be a much brighter place

but it's not really like that, life isn't that simple

but we wish it was

and
so
we
pretend

telling ourselves

that
it

is.